Keep. Moving. Forward.

It has now been a month since losing my job. I have applied to so many jobs I have lost count. I have been denied some and the rest I haven't heard back from yet.

You ever think back on your life and remember as a child where you thought you would be as an adult? I always dreamt of marriage and a family and the Lord has overflowed my cup in that area. I always dreamt of an impactful career. One where I would spent 30+ years at. I love working, (I know i'm strange), I really do love it! I'm a busy body, so staying at home has been so rewarding with Josie, but quite frankly, I am bored.

And, if I were to be completely honest with you all- I feel lost. What is my purpose? I feel like when I lost my job, I lost a part of my identity with it; now I am trying to figure out how I get that part of me back. I told my mom how I was feeling this past week and she told me to keep to my faith. That is so true! I know who I am in Christ. I know I am enough, I know I am wanted!

Although these are all things that I truly know deep in my heart, sometimes I do not FEEL those things. Especially now, I feel like I need to be doing more, giving back more, helping out more financially. I so desperately want to bring a paycheck home, I have always been independent that way. My mom raised me to be a strong woman and that I am, but right now I feel weak.

Now, to the encouraging and happy part because I know there will be a reason for all of this and I will look back one day and realize I am EXACTLY where I need to be.

For about 11 years, I have been asked to join many, I mean MANY direct sales companies. I always declined the offer to join anyone's team. For several reasons. One being I couldn't stand the idea that someone else could make money off of my hard work, I didn't like "bothering" people, and I always thought "get a real job." HA! Now, here I am. I have joined ZYIA! I have messaged over 30 people and have a group with 80 ladies (YAY!)

But here is where things get tricky. So I joined this amazing company without being asked and without even trying on any of their clothes. You may think that's crazy, well because it is, but hear me out. I know how women think, well because I am one. I know how important it is to feel beautiful inwardly and outwardly. You may have the most beautiful soul, but if you don't feel beautiful on the outside, than you wont "show off" that soul. You may be saying in your head "it's just active wear Mady, where are you going with this?"

Well to you it may be. But to me it's my chance to empower women to encourage them to spoil themselves with amazing active wear, to get them looking in the mirror and saying "man, I look good!" And for me it is WAY out of my comfort zone, it is something I swore I wouldn't do for years. But, its almost like God put me in this position to open my eyes to the what ifs. What if this company provides that financial stability I want to bring to my family? What if this company brings me sisters I never knew I had? What if this company stretches me in ways that God needs me to in order for me to grow?

Honestly, what I have been experiencing lately is just a lot of let downs. So, the tricky part like a mentioned before, is that my launch party (where I sell the active wear) is going alright. I have a lot of interests, but not a lot of sales, and that is totally okay. I had expectations going into this company and right now (only started 3 days ago) those expectations are being met in other ways. I am being able to take a step back and congratulate others on their success and hear how ZYIA has changed their lives and I speak out loud every time "that will be me one day!" If you want something bad enough, go chase after it and believe it!!

When all is said and done if all I gain from ZYIA are amazing friends, great tools, and a wonderful network than I am happy! First, I had to let go of my pride and realize I am not in control, not have any expectations but rather have goals, and lastly I have to keep moving forward.

If my childhood dream had come true, I would be playing in the WNBA right now. But, I am so glad that didn't come true, for me what I have now is way more important than that dream. Dreams are amazing and everyone should dream and create a vision board for what you want for your future. However, I have been learning that dreams are only amazing if you surrender them to God and let Him take control first and foremost. I realize I have not been doing that as much as I should. So God, I give you my dreams expectant for what is to come. I know you are faithful through it all and I will keep my eyes on you and keep moving forward!

ZYIA's slogan is "one more rep" and that is so applicable to my life right now! I can picture working out at the gym and telling myself "I cant hit that lift one more time, I am so drained so beat and I am done." And them someone pumps me up and I do it! Not only do I hit that rep I feel amazing afterwards. That is what ZYIA has been for me already, just the reassurance to keep going, that although it is challenging now, it will get easier and it has gotten easier for so many women! I can't wait for my moment, this year, next year or the next, I am ready!

Are you ready to take your leap of faith to get out of your comfort zone and experience all there is to experience when you surrender control? If so, lets chat!